|A!! About My ArtWork:
In theory, I was born in the middle of the year 1978, meaning on June 15th. As the eldest of the four, having two sisters and a brother, my adulthood started at the early age of 6 when I officially became a school student and ended soon when I was 17 with my sturdy determination of rolling back to childhood era and staying there for good. I had entered the boring world of maturity too early, and Thus I got bored of it before I get too old to be an elderly. Such attitude resulted diversities between me and those surrounding me hence forcing all of us to conceive me as an outsider.
As an outsider, I was curious to know more about the creatures I was bordered with, thus I became very observing. I observed, tested, analyzed and concluded else theorized. My observation of people, their deeds or misdeeds alongst with the trend of the world I was encircled with plus my interest in mathematics and physics and my anti-trust on the human findings and their so called text or reference books, helped me in forming my very own philosophy of life and beings at the age of 14-15 which of course I chose to let pass soon as I chose to re-enter childhood. Back then, I also had my own poetry style and my own drawing technique that was obtained by months of hard work on linking “brain electronic signals during recalling an event” to the movements of hand muscles.
Enough said about the convoluted world I had drowned myself into during which I had been prized by the nickname of Einstein.
Getting to learn about love, having friends misunderstanding my explanation of my philosophies, and as said before getting bored of adulthood for countless good reasons, I chose to be different in a greater deal and re-incarnate as a very simple minded, childish, crazy girl who is ignorant enough to be ignored. During this era, I did anything that I had neutral feelings towards. I studied graphic design, shifted to occupational therapy, dealt with some schizophrenics, retuned back to graphic design, gave it up for Information technology and got my master in two terms in “international business”.
It was only when I turned 24, and just after I was knifed in the back by my dearest that I realized I am missing my own self. Since sky always felt like home, I thought of reclaiming myself by going for flying and thus I experienced how to fly as a pilot. I also tried to get back to my drawings and tried to explore it further but in a different way which let to something not as elaborative and symbolic as my good old style, but a simple though unique expressions that I could still admire. I also started writing some short stories which again unlike those philosophical multi-dimensional writings written by the young Sude, are very simple and clear.
I have now made peace with what I detested most in my adulthood, explored it further and deeper and became a scuba diver. I explored the sea, experienced the freshness and calmness it brings to the soul and reflected it in my drawings and I am hoping on exploring it further more.
I know, unlike my old pieces, my current artwork is not conceived a work of a genius as it is speaking the language of the common crowd rather than playing and manipulating minds. I like it as much as I liked my previous efforts and I consider it more mature since it is there for viewers to realize and not for them to imagine. They do not need to take too many sedatives after getting headaches for making fool of themselves by commenting on what my artwork is about or not about when it is about nothing but a technical expression of some electronic signals.
Peace and Peace
P.S. The above autobiography is written by Sudè Khanian in 2003.